Wednesday, June 30, 2004
..................................................................................................................................................................................................................sad..................................sad.........................................................sad.....................................sad............................sad............................sad...................sad..........
sad...very sad...cant cry...very sad to cry...burn today...sad....sad......sad.......sad......sad.....sad....
the flame just excites me...i feel the adrenalin gonig through me...a wonderful sensation that satisfy the hunger of my evil....been wiped...wiped off me...so not me today....sad...utterly sad....cover my face and run away...from all my nitemares...sad....pain...sad...pain....sad....give me my adrenalin...i need it...lungs need a stomper...need...a need...give me...i need...it's a need....cant help it...force myself .....no....yes....no....yes....final...it's no...why?why??stupid...yes...promise yes...i need to lite...need to breathe...my lungs wanna puff....giddy...yes...very...going...out...my mind...lose...myself....all control....lost....need....sumone...need....my angel....fall...fall....fall...to my ground....lay....lay....lay....rest....peacefully....i smell...smell...smell...the fire....feel...heat...waiting...pain....help....feel....high...fly...fly....fly....high...very high....sad.....burn....alive...pain...continue....helps....pain....feel....burn....tears....tasteless....pain...unbearable....leave.....scar....hurts....burn...skin....peels...pain....stnad...no ....longer....cant take it...too pain...unbearable....too....much....hurts....bad....burn...big....pain...cry...scream....slaps...countless....ownself...sad....
bye...
