Friday, January 21, 2005
now i know you've not been reading my blog...it's heart breaking..well..wat's the use of updating and talking about my feelings... you dont even read it.. haiz... i bet you dont even know i'd update it today...well..guess it wasnt as important... haiz... it's just very upsetting... it's my blog that holds most of my deepest feelings and a place where i can express myself easily.. do you bother? haiz..nvm.. you just called..was hopping that you'd try to cheer me up..wat's the use of calling telling me you have not finish and call me later... yeah yeah... my feelings can always be put off... guess i have no ethnics... must not talk on phone ... give fren face...cuz his birthday... my feelings can just push away..haiz.. i dun no i dun no.. nvm ba.. haiz... i dun understnad you can just happily enjoy the party with yer frenz knowing i'm here feeling so sad so very sad... guess it's loneliness... i've told you before... that when i'm angry leave me to cool..but i'm sad pls be there for me... haiz...why?? why why why?? it was so nice today...enjoyed it so much... decided to call you to keep you company till you're there... but maybe it wasnt much...haiz..maybe i'm just nothing... guess i shd be more understanding... i'm just faggoting useless...haiz... just a peice of shit.. haiz.... haiz i shgd fucking stop blogging... well you called again...i guess we did made it through today... haiz.. i really hope you'll remember the things you said you'd do... pls.. thx.. haiz.. now i better go wash my face.. it's burning... and i got breathing prob now cuz chest hurts like mad...