Thursday, February 24, 2005
man... i was so stressed out for two weeks.. all be cuz of the damn D.T. so sickenning... make so mad and scared... why??? i'm so worried for my Os... but more worried for edwin's... the results will be out soon... i'm sure my love will do great.. i'm confidant of him... but myself?? i lack that confidance... what self esteem i have.. but i will work really hard and my lowest mark will just be a b4.. that's for mother tongue obviously... i submitted my art theme today..fantasy is the theme... pretty cool ehz?? ridz also do the same theme.. so means i've got a competitor... talking about competitor.. haiz... i dint go for the heats today.. i decided to retire from my running days.. i dont want to just be a runner.. the only thing my dad thought i was good at in my whole life.. just running.. but i aint gonna run anymore... my life is more interesting and more complex then just running.. it can take me no where.. i want to study hard this year.. and not concentrate on running... i give that part of me up ever since i left primary school.. maybe it was phychological for me as i unluckly couldnt turn up for nationals!!! why?? damn it.. why must i fall sick on that day?? it's like i dont even have to enter the heats.. my timing just made it to the finals... and i couldnt go.. it hurts some how.. to not being able to accomplish that... well.. i want to accomplish my main aim now.. that is to study hard and do well for my O levels.. so the people around me wont look down on me already.. i'm sick and tired of it... well today i bumped into M.r Goh and he some how realize i wasnt like before.. told me i did well.. and i was like : " did well for what thing?" he was like saying he was pretty surprise i scored 23/25. i was thinking.. i have not even got any results yet... wait a min... dont tell me that is for my social studies? it's like ss is upon 25 marks and Mr Goh is pretty close to Mr Foo... does that mean?? i got 23/25 for my ss???? oh my goodness... haha..but wait! dont rejoice first... it might be a false alarm.. hee hee.. anyway.. i will comfirm fail my maths cuz i didnt study for it due to be sick.. damn... but i'm sure the rest would be fine.. well i got back my chemistry marks.. wasnt happy with it.. i just pass.. got 35/65.. boring marks.. i knew that paper will not bring me the marks i dearly wanted.. it was extemely difficult.. many failed and some way below the bottom... i shall just count myself well off that i was able to pass this test.. i will work harder to improve! i cant wait to get my other results... i'm so anxious!! ahahah.. well.. tmr going out with edwin.. bringing sis along cuz we all need to shop for super big ah lian wei ting!! her birthday is coming soon!!! whoo hoo!! happy birthday zarbo! hee hee... wat to get for her? and i'm kinda short of cash.. aww... i spent $40 ytd.. played expensive snooker with edwin at pavillion.. ex and yet horrible table.. just glad that the songs they played was nice.. and it was not so crowded.. i prefer edwin's area.. century.. that place.. super cool..they even clean the table every morning... hee hee.. i also bought a bikini... edwin you you!! kept bugging me to get.. haha... he right.. no manners just open the dressing cover like that..wat if others walk past?? arhz!!! never use brain! knock yer head with hammer! hee hee.. anyway..we're going swimming with a bunch of my frenz from class... gonna have a nice nice tan.. after that me and yi wen will rush for tuition.. hee hee. terrible rite?? well i think i better go.. got loads of work to be done.. and i'm coughing like mad!!!! oh ya ytd was me and my darling 16 mth ann!! love you always baby!!! MUACKS!!