Saturday, February 05, 2005
got fever now... 37.7 degrees... terrible feeling... hai.. qurrelled just now... didnt mean to.. was just hoping for care and comfort.. for coaxing and concern... women go for mant Cs... cash..car..credit card..condo... all i ask was that 4 Cs today... got it halfway... wonder why all the rudeness and impolite remarks need to be made.. you dont do that to yer frenz...why me? am i just nothing? you may so no.. but i feel stepped on.. maybe i'm naive... you said so.. i'll accept that... when i tell you i'm naive you tell me to think wat i want.. angered that i said that.. thing is you told me i was naive... so i just admit to it then.. no pt saying i'm not when you shoot in rite into my face... i'll just forever remember i'm naive and i'm not understanding.. i know i promise you.. i promise that 'll try to be understanding... am i not understanding all along? do you know how hard is it to try to understand?? cuz when i need to understand will be the time i have to leave.. or you to leave... do you think i bear to leave or let you leave? you think it's easy... many would want their loved ones to beg them to stay.. why not you? i know you're rushing.. but i didnt know you'd reach there so early... i dont many things.. i dont know yer coach will scold... did you ever tell me b4?? that time you were late you tell yer coach yer coach never scold wat.. last time when you had yer job.. was i not understanding.. did i hog you? since it's not welcome den i shall not hold you back le.. i will readily let you go... i'll TRY to understand.. but i aint perfect... you said i treated you badly today?? is asking for some coaxing treating you bad?? when i called you did you ask how is my throat... am i still giddy? do you know i have fever now? and i'm angry and sad... i've so much problems.. are you here to help me?? where are you? you're always telling me i'm more impt then Bball... but why is it you cant sacrifice a lil? i did many for you... do you even knoe abt it? you sms me.. telling me many things..not to be tis way.. to give you time.. all these... i dont want to reply... i'm sorri... cuz i aint going to disturb you anymore... talk so much... i bet you have not ask yer parents whether you can go out on the second day of new year... if you did ask you would have told me asap... well... i guess you Forgot... anyway.. i'm just gonna take a lil time off.. and not gonna sms you... sometimes treasuring the last moment is a good thing..you may never no wat mite happen next... wat if i die? will we still have the chance to share our love? why you dont treasure me? i'm not going to reply you... it's aint revenge.. i just let you feel how is it like to be left alone... how lonely a person can be... i gotta go now.. my fever rise again...