Friday, March 25, 2005
i've been crying for days already... i really cant take the pain i'm going through... the 3 ladies of his life is huanting me.. i really cant take it... why is his heart so easy... it just turn... i've always been blinded... tot he gave me 100% of love.. i even tot it was more... but this was all a dream... i gave up everything... so many things and people i've dissapoint... but i gave him my all... and yet i'm treated this way... is it so wrong to just ask for something small... i never demanded so much.. i only ask for the basic need of my heart...haiz... sometimes i wish you will help me out.. like when i'm feeling like this just help me.. then when i'm alreite you wont have to be so angry.. you see all i needed it comfort.. if you just give that.. and give more comfort.. den i feel happy.. i will thank you and say nice things... but you blew up and make things ugly.. you've said many things that hurt that i want to retort back also cant.. like when you screamed out to everyone for me to leave you alone.. i reallly dont get it.. i called you back.. i felt stupid.. i was crying and you just left me like that.. and i stupidly called you back.. and all i got was you shouting at me to leave you alone... it's not a prob anymore.. i will leave you alone le.. if you walk away or hang up.. i will not ask you back unless it was my fault in the beginning.. i cant keep calling you back already.. no more...