Saturday, March 26, 2005
at last... today i did not cry.. haiz.. can count as a happy day after a storm... hee hee..well... i'm not feeling alrite with something tho.. and i kinda dun wanna talk about it.. it is already done.. all i wan now is me and edwin to be happy... hee hee.. i love him alot.. haiz.. darling.. really.. i really need you de... hee hee.. so happy can play pool with you tmr.. hee hee.. anyway.. i'm sorri to alll my frenz when i had to cancel the outing.. really... sorri... my apologies... sorri... dont angry k..and kah wai.. you will get to play pool de.. sorri that time you cant.. ask yer hao hao take you go ma.. he know wat rite.. and yi wen..sorri to you also.. and adeline..thx for talking sense to me... a note to this girl... edwin know who.. i'm just sorri.. i didnt mean to get between a friendship.. it's not even my intention.. in fact i still want you both to be frenz even it was so hard.. edwin really want to give up the frenship but i said no.. it's the truth... edwin is doing good for you.. you cant be too dependant on people.. and the thing is.. your frenship with him was alrite in the beginning... if you could say 5 years of friendship wasted to one yr of love.. den when he was with you.. you left him.. isnt it like the same.. you cant get everything you wan in this world.. just appreciate wat you have.. but you didnt.. when ed was there for you.. you dumped him for another.. he stayed by yer side even if he had other girls and you ask him not to be so possesive... i mean.. now you get wat you wanted and yer somewat complaing... if you really are his fren.. den you should noe that you cant spoil a fren's life.. it like he cant wait on you forever.. even it wasnt me.. if it was other girl.. he cant always be treating you better... like wat you say.. people need to move on... and when ed does you hate it.. why? he aint yer servant.. just dont be so heartless already... i bet you broke many hearts.. that's why you have so many probs.. you always say as if yer frenship was so great.. but at the same time complain there's a hole.. wat's wrong with you?? do you know you have to treat people with respect? if you hurt people too much one day they will slowly leave yer side.. do you want that?? edwin is doing you a great help on yer life in future.. you must grow up.. i can honestly ask you to face up to reality and stop being naive... edwin tried explaining but you denied it.. thing is he's not trying to get back again.. he is just trying to make you understand that it is not the way u tot it as.. if you want to be in such a state of denial den know one can help you already.. it's up to you...